I'm anxious. I'm not sure why though. I could just be ready to go to work. Anxiety is a reason I smoke though, so its why I want a cigarette right now. Analyzing why I do things is kinda difficult but its essential to gaining control over my life. I read a book about gaining control if your bi polar, it didn't even touch on figuring out why you do something. There is always a why behind everything. There is a why behind why too, usually. In my case right now, I want a smoke. Why? I'm anxious. Why? I'm about to meet a friend who is going to take me to work. I don't like owing people and I owe him for his kindness in taking me to work. I'm also leaving Liam with his babysitter for the first time, and I'm unsure about what work will bring today. I'm anxious about a lot of things apparently.
I could try meds instead of a smoke. Meds take 15 to kick in though.